Notes I didn’t throw away. Mostly unedited. Written when it needed to get out.
The life I want is the life you have
I recently moved to Europe, away from family, friends and everything I held dear. To live on my own. In a country I haven’t visited before, with a language I don’t understand and a culture I’m not familiar with. This massive change brought a set of challenges and discomforts. But I’m also experiencing something I haven’t fully embraced before. Solitude. Space to reflect. Time to understand myself. Opportunity to raise questions and find answers. Though the answers aren’t always what you expect. ...
I must stick to my word
Talk is cheap. It is meaningless unless backed by actions. How many times have I failed to execute an action that I had promised myself to? How many times have I knowingly wasted my time even though that’s the biggest thing I preach to others? How many times have I delayed a task or completely skipped it knowing that it was going to benefit me if I push through that face? ...
Live life to the fullest
3:07 am Life is all about perspective, you know. One day you’re thinking you have nothing going good in life. You feel like everybody is passing you by. You only think and look at the things that are going bad. Until you take a moment to sit down and think about what’s going great. Until you can stop and look at the things that make your life so blissful. Until you stop and realize that you have a wonderful life as it is. ...
Give Me a Sign
I drag myself out of the bed Screams of night still stuck in my head Better day hopes are slowly crumbling away Should I run for the day or would I rather be dead Don’t wanna face the day But still gotta fight for bread Don’t wanna feel like crap But still gotta high for med Don’t wanna cry and weep Don’t wanna curse and bleep Don’t wanna shoot me down But life’s nothing but dread ...